Be still, and know that I am God. Psalm 46:10
That verse has kind of been the verse of the last few weeks, actually. I've visited it many times. In the women's Bible study. At church. In my personal studies. I think we might even have talked about it in small group. It's a great verse.
I had a slight melt down today, which I could see coming, looking back, because of the difficulty I had in being asleep last night. Restless.
A friend and I have talked lately about how you can be growing stronger in the Lord, feeling closer to Him, or having a lot of positive things happening, then all of a sudden you are assaulted with negative, negative, negative in an attempt to bring you down, to turn you away from God. That has been my last couple of days, it seems.
- Yesterday, there was the ambush from the group of girls.
- Last night only two or three other people showed up for the inter-generational Bible study, a huge disappointment. At least I had a good time planning with this week's team. (I don't know that our church needs new programs for this or that. I think the programs we have are good. If anything, I like the idea of beefing up the adult ministries instead of children ministries because children learn from what their parents teach them, directly and indirectly. I still strongly believe this truth: People will make time for the things that are most important to them. Unfortunately, for many people in America, being involved in church and developing a relationship with Christ (and all that that entails) is not really a priority. Sports, TV, earthly treasures, or battling for the busiest schedule takes precedent. I think what our church needs is a little (or big) push towards God. A change in commitment stems from a heart change.)
- Today, I had two students score below the "Meets Standards" for our grade level, one who chose that path on purpose, scoring a 35 out of 100. He didn't put any effort into the tests at all, as I thought he might do if the opportunity presented itself. (This was what resulted in my melt down leading to tears. I knew the reaction was silly during the time it was happening. Sometimes I surprise myself with the tears that fall in various situations. I guess I just needed a moment!)
- One of the lovely ladies from yesterday's drama decided not to drop her wrong attitude and told one of my students to tell me that she didn't like me (or something silly like that). So that drama continued also. I'm exhausted with all of that nonsense.
All in all, I'm glad the work day is over. I'm glad I can settle in tonight to the women's Bible Study and I'm super glad to crack open God's Word again tonight, the very thing that helped to calm the noises in my head so I could fall asleep late last night.
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
But seek first [your heavenly Father's] kingdom and his righteousness,
and all these things will be given to you as well.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow,
for tomorrow will worry about itself.
Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Pulled from Matthew 6:25-34